I read my diary today…
To see What five years ago I had to say.

And with teary eyes
I relived my demise.

At the time I was aware…
That I was dealing with more then seemed fair.

I was trying…
To deal with my husbands dying

I was diagnosed with breast cancer…
But “no chemo” had to be my answer.

I was not able to bargain or plea…
I had to cope with what was in front of me.

No ones fault
But our lives had come to a screeching halt.

Emotionally…at that time I was not strong
But I sensed refusing chemo was not wrong.

I was not willing to endure…
The inhumane treatment…they call cure.

I refused to be a victim
As a result from the poison they would drip into my system.

Destroying healthy cells seemed no answer
To cure cancer.

And no one would guarantee…
That chemo would help me…to become cancer free

Cancer care is big business…
No cure is forthcoming…for this illness

Selling drugs is what the medical world embraces
The focus is…on finding more cases.

I truly believe a cure will not be forthcoming
The amount of money that is made by many is stunning.

Eating well, exercise and emotional well being
Seem a better approach for healing.

With these modalities I have had 5 more years
And I trust I will have more without fears

These last 5 years I know…
I would probably not have had…with chemo.