On the day your loved one is pronounced dead,
You will wildly bewildered get alone into your bed.

No one can ever imagine the pain,
If they have not experienced the same.

The gut wrenching tidiness in your chest,
Is debilitating and nauseous at best.

And for some,
An experience comparable to none.

Everything aches,
While you tremble on your legs.

You want to scream very loud,
And hope to pass out.

Because you did never expect,
That his death you had to accept.

And  after the first dark and painful night,
You do not want to see the morning light.

As with the start of that first morning
You will be in mourning.

Whatever you cherished together in life before
You know will be no more.

It becomes easier to accept as time goes on,
But the ache will never be completely gone.

But at some point you again will arise
From this horrible demise.

And while you work and strive
To accept this new face in life

You learn to cope and accept
That your loved will not return from his death

His memory has found a permanent place in your heart.
And encourages and helps you to make a new start.