Out of the Blue

OUT OF THE BLUE

I had hoped it would not come back…
But I just…had another severe Trigeminal Attack

After a little over two years…
I was back on my knees…and in tears

Had forgotten how severe it can get…
When I got up trembling in cold sweat.

I am afraid to move my face or chew…
To prevent another attack out of the blue.

I freeze…
Thinking about the future with this mysterious disease.

I try to maintain enough reserve
To deal with this Trigeminal nerve.

No one can tell…
But I hear for some life can become a living hell.

I will avoid to prevent wind or cold…
Because that can trigger this nerve I am told.

Maybe it was the air conditioning in the theater last night
While we watched the movie “Spotlight”.

In the meantime I hold my breath today
Hoping the attacks leave again as fast as they came.